I am a Tall Girl

    Have you seen the recent trend of people commenting on girl’s post that “she is exactly who she thinks is.” I wanna be exactly who I think I am. 

I don’t think I've ever answered honestly when people ask where I see myself in ten years. In a dream world, I see myself with a husband whose own friends boast of his character and beg him to come around more often but he has missed one too many “boys nights” because he simply would rather spend his free time with me. I see myself settled with someone who puts his wife above his kids. Who sees me as his biggest blessing and our kids as our biggest accomplishment. Someone who is successful in their own passions and always pursuing further greatness.

I see myself settled into who I am. Settled into a sloppy routine with priorities of seeing my father and siblings and their extensions on a regular basis. I see myself proud to boast and rant about my work. I see myself as someone who tells the struggling story of how I worked for all I have and how I now get to reap the sweet reward of it all. I see myself as someone with such a unique and sophisticated yet uninfluenced by mainstream media- sense of style that people see things that are kinda “out there” and think to themselves “Jules would wear that.”

I see myself as someone who would be in one of those “What Makes You Confident Videos?" I see myself as someone who is remembered for making such a radical change in her life that it brought her to a point where traffic didn’t stress her out and the waiter spilling soda on her lap didn’t ruin her night. 

Someone who is remembered more for her laughter than her perfect smile. I see myself strutting like a tall woman in New York running late to work. Who’s legs and sheer powerful stance draw people’s eye and curiosity, breath taking them with her stature and confidence. 

I wanna be a tall girl. I wanna be that friend, that daughter and that person. Sure, I will fall short on many of these things or maybe even change my mind on my desire for some of them but right now I'm gonna fake it till I make it,  because I already am a taller girl than I once was.